One Mistake To Many...

So there has to be these little things in life called mistakes!... why do we make them!!.
All i know is i seem to repeat myself when it comes to that one word mistake. They question what you are really thinking and make you wonder; are they just things that we cant prevent.
If you are placing a weight into someone Else's hands you obviously have to take responsibility of the situation right?.

whether its letting a friend down or going to the extremes. You have to really think about what your letting yourself in for. (This doesn't happen until the situation is over)

The way i see it is.. to always forgive and forget, but now at the age of 19 I'm starting to realise that this isn't everybodys outlook.

lifes like a rough ride of dissopointments and sometimes excitement. It doesnt always keep you happy.

When the year starts it has to end....

There is always new beginnings that we have to face as people. Little things like, riding a bicycle for the first time or your first few steps past the school gates. What we never seem to think about is, how hard these little things become for us;
They are inevitable, and make us who we are.
Looking back through my childhood i can remember my biggest fear was meeting new people and making friends. To be honest it still is now. Having the confidence to say those few words!!.

" Hey My Names April, Whats yours".. Such small words, but my mouth was zipped.

Its not like that anymore though, the way of communicating has changed. Instead of two people blankly saying to one another how they feel. Theres facebook or twitter. Seems like a way of hiding from what you really think. You create this image of yourself this world that you want people to judge.
Im not saying that i dont get sucked into this world because hey ofcourse i do, its just something you cant prevent.

To me it feels like im having to impress all the time the way i look and the way my personality comes across. When i just want to say fuck it! I am who i am and if you want to see that then come see it.